渔火成城

这个地方很久没来了，或许是大学以后生活丰富了，不需要这个小世界了who knows。不过哥哥用，他又要出国，我就回来了，呵呵

说到哥哥，算是大学这一年最欣慰的一件事吧，在远远的成都有那么一个人会随时陪在我身边。我也还是那么的矛盾，害怕失去，他又每每给我强大的安全感，渴望相见，又期许美好的虚拟世界。。。我知道我很傻，哥哥是好人，一切简单就好！一个月后成都见啊

大学一年经历了很多，也许比以前缺少了深刻的思考，但经的事情多了，看人做事会长进的嘛。上学期就那么混混沌沌地，在被骗和自欺中皇皇度过，当时的辛酸和痛苦，害怕失去内心的自己。。。一切都历历在目，那晚躺在草坪上，望着月亮，奔涌出的泪水，我也没有忘。

也许寒假在河北支教成了4年的转折点吧。还能回忆起李家地头顶蓝蓝的天，脚下白白的雪，身旁纯真的人，一切都在那一刻静了下来。10几天里我想了很多事情，看开了很多东西。学会了放弃，学会了把握！

就这样，下学期从喧嚣了外界退了出来，安心看书学习，听自己喜欢的课，安排自己的时间。还是班长，偶尔忙一忙。之后加入了FACES(Form for American/Chinese Exchange at Stanford)，我的第一个精英学术社团，交到不少朋友，开了眼界。安静的日子总是过得很快，一转眼就到现在，期末成绩出来了大半（比上学期要好很多，进步就满意），也开始了暑假。

之前的事了，哈佛大学HAUSCR八月在上海办的HSYLC(Harvard Summit of Youth Leaders in China)在全球选了50名中国籍志愿者，我选上了，挺高兴的，可以和一个哈佛明星学生共同带领一个组，都是全国优秀的高中生。去年请的李开复，马云，易中天，还有复旦清华的教授，学学知识，长长见识吧！要在那个城市泡上差不多一个月，还不热脱水了。。。

这两天的事，选上了牛津大学举办的第四届“国际模拟联合国大赛（OXIMUN) ”的比赛选手，全球400名，人大9个。这个东西要准备整整两个月，一百多页的英文材料，连联合国宪章这种东西还要看。。。晕了，本来就是打算玩玩的，这下子要用心备战了。

几个事情让我觉得眼前的路更加明晰了。联系的清华NGO研究中心的老师不知道9月时候会不会收我，但愿吧。不过老头儿的论文我实在不想写了，一个书单十几本书，都tm史料，想逼死我啊！ 下学期还要还有协会申办09年OCG的proposal要写，日子不会好过了。。。

不过这一年的积累带来的结果我还是很高兴的，愿之后的路可以顺利地走下去。

我喜欢漂泊的生活，但必须有一颗安静的心。她可以带我去所有我想去的地方，可以让我永远和家人在一起。

人不在于能力有多强，要看眼界有多大。

又一次来到北京，又一次来到新东方，只不过这次周围都是同龄人，感觉更亲切，话题也多了些

可能因为碰到了个很合得来的寝室，可能是这样一个远离喧闹的生活，我显得又一次变回了小孩，又傻了起来

其实，要有必要的克制，要有适当的提醒，无论是谁，不能说我不真诚，但不这样，就是傻子

还没想好月末上完课去哪玩一圈再回家，应该还是往北走，东北，内蒙，河北之类的，否则回家一直呆一个月还是挺恐怖的，呵呵

现在对于未来的生活心态很平静，也不需要什么波澜，用时间和思考预料.证明，感受她就好，这不是随便说说可以讲得对的，像刘昊说的那样，她就在那，说不清楚看不明白，但她实实在在地就在那，所以用心去感受就好

交了好多朋友，寝室好多，再由刘昊，于芃，还有.......总之，感情方面很顺利，其中也包括些新的感受，嘻嘻（坏笑）

已经好多天没学习了，虽然说可以放松放松，但还是应该注意一下的，当然也有些班的问题，也许我真的到了一个瓶颈？不过老师实在没教给我什么新鲜的东西，探索吧.........哈哈

求索中.............！！！！！

今天同学去学校领分数条，我去拿毕业证，这也可能是最后一次大家一起去学校了吧

其实那天去好乐迪玩得很开心，有人提前走的时候心里就有些不好受，尤其看到赵越，呵呵

感觉有些伤感，可能有些人今天以后一辈子也见不到了，想想，，，，，不敢想

3年就这么过去了，尤其对于我，没有高考的人，很快很快，处在的班级挺温馨的，至少大家互相之间都不错，很快乐，学到了很多

这几天常常会问自己“就这么结束了？”，想想，，，犹豫了一下，，，明白，是的“就这么结束了”，，，，心里满是无奈，遍地伤感

没办法的吧

只能接受这个事实，不过也要看到，我依然可以和很多同学联系，依然有好多朋友，这就很幸福，很快乐

分开是为了开始，我要做的不是去感伤，而更应该全力面对新的集体，新的聚合，新的挑战

 

就这么分开了？，，，，，是的，就这么分开了，不过我很幸福，幸福。。。。。。。

 

 

 

by flight from GuangZhou to Guilin at 30May ,i arrived in the special city dreamed by a great number of people!

only 45minutes! I do it!

first i went to Flowers ,that beautiful place ,and put things there -----begin my travel!!!   three hills and several lakes one day ,i'm very tired that night! specially remember the Elephant hill,wonderful! u know ,Guilin city is small ,so mostly on foot,

at night ,i went to see city's famous scenery :two rivers and four lakes ,i'm surprised the Guilin government is so nice ,there're many colourful lights letting threes and water pretty! also some citiens told me tall buildings cannot be built there which will affact appreciating hills and ```` mountains and hills and water everywhere,really everywhere!!!

the next day i went to Longji ,just the Trerance field ,maybe a little earlier ，field has not been all irriated ,only half,so ``` but still very good ,a phenomenon in the world ！

then i started my 2day trip to Yangshuo ,the very famous towm ,also LiusanJie's hometown.I took a cruise ship there ,that's the most beautiful part of Li River ,maybe ,i can just say maybe ,haha! Yangshuo is really different ,especially the Xi street ,all foreigners.first day iafternoon i went to MoonHill and Darong Shu ,very near,when back yha ,i talked with a Swedn a lot ,now we've been good friends ,later another 2 American girls attend us .We together have a good time along night-Xi street ! however ,a strange thing happened ,one of the USA girl met a friend she has met before ,so they began talking ,plying and drinking and i just followed ! i then knew their meet style ,so different from us ,everyone can become friends ,reaaly ,that' that ,and very easy ,just talk happily and talking seems an importan t to them ,of course as a man ,i also drank  ,a little Chinese white wine ,oh ,not as serious as i thought before!

up to 1 o'clock at night ,i can't believe now~~~~~ a new life ,new ones

yesterday we had breafast at noon ,haha ,very late ,and had planned to travel other places but with``` so just attend ,and we have a detailed look at Yangshuo ,Xi street ,many shops ,later tired ,we four each has one bottle of beer ,also incl;uding me ,a whole bottle ,i did it! haha

back hotel i slept ,even didn't know what ther had done ! at last ,we seperated  ,said goodbye to my Swedn friend (4years bigger) but unfortunnately didn't see the girls ,only wish them !wish my friend!

back Guilin later !

wonderful journey there ,most different and important,not for the scenery ,for the people!

I think this time i go to the South ,playing is not the most impor~ thing ,is interacting with differnt people ,different lives!

enrich my thought and life ,really great ,English is better now ,haha ! I have experienced a lot ,i knew what is changing silently in my herat ~~~ IN MY HEART !

Good luck for everyone !everyone who has helped me so much in yha and the guide and foreigners ,and friends ,wish all of u ,best wishes!

so quick ,my classmates will face their exam less than a week later ,also wish them good luck ,like my theme get things u want to ! Go and Make it!!!

 

tha's maybe many days before ,i spent 2days in HongKong and one afternoon in Macau ,only by myself ,really ,just myself dealing with everything!!! I am GREAT,everyone must admit that!

HK is very prosperous ,also very small ,and I am not used to that kind of busy and hard life.Being a mainlandnese is ok ,haha. and I went to Desniland Resort ,a little smaller than American's ,meeting rains ,so performance didn't come out very well !

refering to Macau ,not too long ,just some hours,so no much feeling ,not many people but many tourists,just a common land !

Of course ,i really want to say ,things there are too expensive ,really really,especially eating and living .at this time it's good to know that i'm trying to lose weight and also yha helps a lot !

I'd not like to live in HongKong ,but i wish it better ,and Macau```who knows ,all the same

that's the window fo China opening to the outside world ,so rich(50percent have private cars),also many foreigners,but u know ,that city doesn't have some history,so maybe not very attractive to me.  also there're many good man-made things ,which are famous ,just like Happiness Valley,and the Window of the world ,andthese things show the most important chartcter  of our country -yeah,that's big ,haha ,every place is very very big,the latter one i mentioned may be equal to a small country ! i lived in the centre of Shenzhen,so many people ,so many rubbish,so````the city doesn't give some good impact ,but later when i went to HongKong from Shenzhen ,the road i passed is very good ,so maybe that's really a good window,that depends on the person ,haha ,the city is waiting for u to come!

现在已经不那么困惑了，这次回家妈妈的想法也有了很大的改变，她希望我学的，过得快乐就好，喜欢就好，我很高兴他们会这样想，虽然还是可以听得出别的愿望，但一切不是都如希望的样子进行的

这一周的心情真是大起大落啊，小7的评价让我很高兴，那1男突然出去玩了，普陀山，想想都觉得美，呵呵！他和我说的些话让我感动，更信任了。 一切归于平静之后，我明白自己的想法过于复杂，其实事情都很简单，情绪是人们自己想出来的，希望自己能过上简单，快乐的生活

我找到自己喜好的学问，国际政治，以前没有观察生活中的点滴表现，没有发现自己对政治问题的高度敏感与喜好，不知道是否真的有这方面的天赋，至少我很喜欢嘛，这就足够了，对吧，嘻嘻，淡然我还是对自己很有信心的。谁叫我每天觉睡得那么好，智商那么高呢！哈哈哈哈。在大学里，会有更多的机会接触学术意义上的政治，而非现在的时事，毛皮，更多的机会去研究，慢慢来吧，多注意就好啦

一直抑制在心中的出国梦在一次冲了出来，使得，为什么一定要打压自己呢？也许当初的信念是正确的，确实很苦，确实很累，但只有这样才有挑战性，才值得一试嘛！但是，我不是传统，泛泛的留学大潮中的一分子，我明白自己的人生方向。出国去找更好的教育，是因为我看中在学习过程中对我能力的提高，尤其是个人素养和思维能力，是为了自己成为一个更为优秀的“人”，而不是为了纪念寒窗后的小本本，否则，本末倒置了。只要记住原则，本质，无论学在哪里，都会的到提高，毕竟 一切在于自己嘛！

不要信奉什么权威，王陆说的就对啊，这话那1男说的太对了。什么没有可能都是放屁，是要足够优秀，老头儿们怎么会不要你呢？坚信金子会发光的，但更要记住，一定要“是”金子，我嘛，撑死是个银子，呵呵

周2是老妈的生日，好多年没有家人在一起过了吧，该死的学业啊，这次要珍惜啦！

周3要正式开始我的南方之旅啦，要去一个多月，甚至几个月，等到回来就已经不再是育明的人了，想想过去的三年，心中无限的感慨于怀念，充实多彩的日子，改变人生的时光，这期间我经历了太多太多，学习之余我明白了许许多多人生的道理，育明让我明白人生除了奋斗还有休息，除了吃苦还有享乐（这是我受益最深的）~~~~她拓宽了我的眼界，她增长了我的知识，她教了书也育了人。回家之前经过学校，一个人站在外面，对这学校说了好多的话，可能也是身为在读学生的最后一次了，真的很感谢大连给我的这三年，感谢育明给我点的这三年，我将记住，爱她永远~~~~~~

现在满脑子都是怎么好好玩的事，呵呵，想去一趟广西和云南，要不然，下次还要坐飞机去，一定要好好筹划一下！！！

好了，一切都在紧锣密鼓的进行当中，吃好玩好嘛，一定要活出味道，就是喜欢！

GO！~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~